360/180 degrees... REalize the angle you are in

Leaving just isn’t easy! It is unfortunate and it happens! When it does, we fight it because leaving someone you have spent time with and loving is no easy task. In every relationship, regardless of how it started or how it is ending, there are so many good things you have convinced yourself could and should keep together. They do, until the day you wake up and realize the things that once worked no longer do.
you know you’ve changed. you’ve grown.The little things that once brought a smile to your face are now burden in your heart. you know what you have to do. you just don’t know how to do it. You don’t want anyone, especially you, to get hurt. You know that if you could just move beyond the fear, the guilt, the anticipation of anger, you could close this door. It wouldn’t be easy, but you could move on. You know you have done the best you could do. You know you have given all that you have to give. Yet for some reason you keep on trying to make it work. Well. here is something that you may not know..
When you have learned all you can learn in a relationship, its season will end. When you have healed what you came into the relationship to heal, its purpose has been fulfilled. When a relationship is over, it is over! Hanging on will only make the days ahead darker!
You may have thought that ending a realtionship was a difficult, challenging or unnecessary experience.
Acknowledge and accept all that you have learned and all that you have healed. When you can be grateful for those things, it will be easier to let go.
Acknowledge the lessons learned, blessings earned and wounds that have been healed.
Realize that people do come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime!

...now. ..that i'm seeing what I've written before. I shall say.. Realize the angle you are in..SHall you stay (360') or shall you go? (180')... As much as possible, I do not want to go over what I've written.. NOw i SEe.. I realized how painful it was for me.. Yes it WAS! and It will always will be! but one thing is for sure I am healed.. Because I can look at it now. NO tears of regrets. No disappoinments toward thyself. My life now is happier and more matured, and with a wider point of view.If you feel like the relationship you are in now is just worth saving. GO! give it a chanCE. Take not I did say, A CHANCE (not chances)..but if not.... cry it all out.give yourself a good cry. good cry, GO!because you are giving up and not letting go. The difference between the two? GIVING UP is surrendering it because it not right anymore and Letting GO is making it go when it was rightfully yourS! ....

CHANGES: ...staying.. is it for the better?!

This was written some years ago. as I've said. i've been to the ups and deepest down of my life (so far!) and had a lot of insight. My life now is diiferent. My life now laughs with or without tears. I want this to be included in my new blog since i do believe healing is aprocess and i hope that as you read on this. Healing will be in your vocabulary as Mr. Webster can anly define it and YOu! yes you! shall give meanign to it!..here it goes...

Some people stay in unsatisfying relationships just to be able to say they stayed. At times, we stay simply because we are tired of walking away or cannot dare ourselves to just leave thigns behind.Or we may stay for the "bragging rights" to be able to say, "I did my part! I tried really hard! I gave all I had to give!" Or we may stay hoping against hope that things will get better, that we will one day get what we believe we have given. The question is. what are you really proving? As children, we learn how to take a spanking. We learn how to run. How to hide. how to duck, dodge, and cover the various parts of our bodies to avoid the pain of spanking. If we are lucky, we eventually master what to do and how to do it to lessen the blows. The question is, what do you say about yourself when you show that you know how to take a beating? In relationships, it is quite possible to stay long after it is a healthy or wise to do so. But you can only master what you know is coming, which leaves you completely unprepared for new developments. To stay for the sake of staying could hurt or get you hurt. Beyond the physical, mental and emotional pain, there is the damage that is done to your spirit and to you as a person. When that damage happens, there is no way to duck, run or hide from the pain. You may have considered yourself brave for staying in a relationship or other situation because you knew how to STAY. SOmetimes you have to remeber that staying is not just about keeping a realtionship. WE are not actually doing a favor to the person if we are staying despite the incompatibilities and Being there for the wrong reasons instead, we are trying to put the persont in a negative entrpy. When we do not want it to change. DO you think that helps the person? would be rather blind? or be the first person brave enough to walk away or to let this person realize that he or she is not intothe both of you?

LoVe and relationship is a shared responsibility and decision of working it out. We shall evaluate oursleves in the process of nurturing it. BOth parties should be devoted to evaluating why you stay.What you must do to stay and whether or not staying is causing you spiritual pain.

Evaluate,examine motives and methods for staying in a situation where we you could possibly be hurt….LOVe is realizing…relationships never die.They change!

NACIONALISMO: Is It really through a SONG?!

NACIONALISMO: Is it really through A SONG?!

It was exactly one day after Pacquiao’s fight over Hatton that I personally heard about the issue of Martin Nievera singing the National anthem on an international fight and as I expected he would receive criticisms more than compliments in singing it by changing some notes and making it delightful in his own ears. I myself had a feeling of.. “oh, What happened. That is just so different from the way I was taught in singing it back then, when I was in elementary.” After which, as the news goes, they want him to have his public apology and maybe to his surprise, he does not want to. But eventually, he gave in.
The next few days, As I browsing again through the net, I read that there was a suggestion of banning Mr. Nievera in going to our beloved LUPANG HINIRANG! (Chosen NATION). Why? Because his apology is not just enough and it does not suffice the public. Oh really?....not really enough for whom? The Philippines? For the people? Or for the officials waiting to be controversial in this issue? Well, it is your time to shine, so go on, keep it up. Criticize Mr. Nievera up to the very last minute. My point is. I do understand the point of the concerned offices in trying to maintain the “holiness”of every song, letter, flag, symbols and image we have in our history , I am a Filipino! I am proud of what I’ve become because of this chosen nation but, think again. It is just too far away from the real issue. This is just too much. Calling Mr. Nievera’s attention is just right, he needs to be corrected but preventing him from going into the country is just too much. For me, it just shows how shallow we could be as Filipinos. Shallow because we make it a BIG deal when all have done was to apologize and feel sorry for himself. Is it really a crime when you cannot sing the National anthem in the Julian Felipe’s way? Well in fairness to the authorities, they tried to mention the real singers who could sing our song like Lea Salonga and the UP choir. Then again, it gave me the idea, my version of the song maybe wrong, sooooo wrong! Comparing my voice to them? I might just be exclaimed from the country. (tsk.tsk)..If that is the case, then let all the primary students who are singing it every 7:30 in the morning in front of a flag be guilty! Their version may just be too high too low, too fast or too slow!
My point is, If Nievera had it intentionally done? Obviously?! Then tell him, point out to him how far did he went. Would putting him in the jail, preventing him to enter the country correct it?.. It was a crime? After all. Okay let him suffer the consequences of his actions, it is encrypted in our law anyway. But then again, is this really a heinous crime? An act of disobedience and unfaithfulness? Is this just how heavy could it be?
As far as I know when I had my elementary days, they told me the ways of measuring loyalty to the country, is through singing the national anthem whole-heardtedly, the Julian Felipe’s way? In the first place (have you ever asked yourself, what is the real version of Felipe in this?), give respect to the flag and above all be proud as a Filipino, be kind, be hospitable, be a FILIPINO! (that was the way it was instilled in me) It was even mentioned that we have to speak in the native tongues until we came to a point that we have to be competitive and we have to be call-center agents fluent enough to speak the international language. So, are they not loyal too? IS this how superficial we could be? Is it not measured by unity and making my kababayan be proud as a FIlipino because I am just excelling as a FILIPINO and putting my best foot forward?..Now, how do you measure your NACIONALISMO? DO we really rate it by the native tongue we speak and the tones we give in every lyric of our national song? In this context, is it not better, if we really live in the saying: action speaks louder than words?..As for Me? I measure it through representing my tan color, my three stars, my blue and red. I am proud as a Filipino not because my kabayan is good enough in singing the anthem, but because I am productive in the country, making a difference in me and that is being able to instil hope in every Filipino that though life maybe unfair, FILIPINOS are just another lahi (Race) to be proud of? Why? because we are flexible, diversed, and most of all NATURALLY GIFTED with TALENTS! WE shine despite poverty dragging us down! For the Filipinos out there, you are shining, wherever you are, I know you are proud of our native land. We were conquered once, we liberated ourselves and now that we are truly, amazingly noticed in every part of the globe, just be sure that you could sing the NATIONAL anthem or else you would be inhibited in going home (you would never know, how popular you could be, so playsafe!) and.... Oops, before I forget, the title is LUPANG HINIRANG and not BAYANG MAGILIW!

Katrina HALILI SCANDAL! omg!! IF ONLY!!!

Katrina HALILI SCANDAL! OMG!
IF Only...
Life without a struggle could be boring at times and a life with too much of friction could just be so damn overwhelming. As I watched the news at a local TV station it is just so sad that life indeed is unfair. Why? Because as I watched, it is only favouring people who are known and of course, that makes them more remarkable.
I am a woman, a woman with rights and who is assertive in every fight I may have ventured in. However, as I watched and relax in front of my TV set, I cannot help but think that it is always focused and exaggeratedly given to the controversial issue of Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho (the late doctor.. tsk.tsk.). This point of view of mine does not mean that I do not feel for her (Katrina). Of course I do. I am not insensitive in the first place however I am just again frustrated about how the politicians making a politics about it. Is it some sort of “pogi points”(merit) for their candidacy?.. well, you better know their vested interest in this issue. I just hope that they are not helping Ms. Halili because of 2010 elections. I am saddened by the fact that Katrina was used by an immoral and pervert Hayden but more importantly I am more disappointed by the fact that she may not be realizing that she is again used for another personal gain of those people around her. Why? It is because we know since time immemorial that innovations of technology is coupled with the different scandals of some figures. If only the senators, the congress have passed a bill before then and made a great deal of these scandals as to La salle, UST, SLU, UB, Ateneo and all other universities that I am sure had a taste and own versions of their scandals, this thing that happened today should have not happened. I mean it may have been done for personal use of Hayden and for sure (since he WAS a doctor) he is clever enough (well, not so!) to think twice before bragging his different collections. As I watched, you know what I really felt? I feel for the other woman who were victims for the same instances and were not given much attention. This is were injustice comes, if only the concerned people have done something about this before, it may have minimized the issue in the CHRISTIAN country we are living in. It just shows the shabbiness among the officials we partake our taxes for their salary and their most convenient life as a VIP in the different government offices. It does not serve the majority of people- the MASS, though for sure it have served the mass’ interest.
I just hope that Katrina learned her lesson that not all people who may be good to her now are not really benefiting her but instead it is the other way around. I am not pointing a finger to anyone, I just want to reiterate that this is unfair because it only reflects the inobservance of our officials in protecting the public interest. As far as I know, the reason why I vote is because I have the confidence in putting people in a position that would be more of a FILIPINO advocate i.e., to protect me and the majority of my rights, as a woman, and as a citizen. They should serve me more than serve themselves. Well, all I can is , they know themselves and of course it is them who only knows their reason for grieving and fighting with/ for Katrina. They should understand that more than being a Katrina who was destroyed and “ binaboy” as she terms it, Katrina will be a woman who would serve as a model for fighting the woman’s rights. Because as far I know, there are many other woman who felt her and really had the determination of fighting, but since they do not have the attention and the support like Katrina has now, they were weakened and for sure devastated by the experience and lost the motivation because of lack of support coming from authorities who could make a great impact in their fight. I am sure that there are woman out there who gets my point and up to now are still victims, not because they were “na-baboy” again but because they were neglected, rejected and ignored by our law which is not existing and about to exist?!... Shall I say thank you to Hayden for being a celebrity guilty of such insult and thank you to Katrina for being a controversial, sexy and hot victim?...for without them, this issue have not been addressed when it should have been done long time ago. I just hope that this would be the last instance of making an issue because it involves celebrities. I hope for a BIG change in the Filipino Traditional Politics. And that change is to be alarmed before any tragic instance comes and to anticipate the possible circumstances. Katrina now is weeping, and I pray for her that she may be able to see the blessing in this instance and i.e., she was able to make this issue reach the concerned parties, BIG officials hear and finally listen to the victims of fantasy of every man’s flesh. In the same way as though she may have learned her lesson in a very hard way she will be able to stand up and be more of a fighter. I do not really know where her strength may be coming from but this is the time for repentance and above all VALUING OF SELF and LOVE THYSELF applies and SELF-REPSPONSIBILITY shall be connoted . It is indeed true, with great powers come great responsibility. More is expected from an artist especially if you are a FILIPINO. It is not yet too late for you my dear celebrity. AJa Aja Katrina!.. For the officials who might be offended, I advise you not to react or else you will be in the defensive state. GOD BLESS Philippines!
N.B: I am not writing here as an avid fan of Hayden (obviously?!) and Katrina and the public officials, I wrote this more than a woman’s ADVOCATE, and that is VALUING my tax!